6.16.2008

about that triathlon...

Part of me still cannot believe that I woke up at 5:30am to drive out to East Austin with Kate and swim/bike/run my Sunday morning away, but that's what I did on June 8th.  Thankfully, K was in town, which was a great big motivator for me :)  Somehow with both of us there we still managed to *not* remember the camera, so I'll try to paint pictures with my words.

When Kate and I drove up it was still dark, and we loaded up busses that would take us out to the tri staging area.  We got our stuff laid out for the tri (we had racked our bikes the night before) and headed over to watch the swimmer start, which is about when the nervous giggles began.  No, "giggles" is not at all the right word - I would burst into laughter every couple minutes or so because part of my brain kept nudging me in the ribs and saying, "dude.  you're seriously doing this?" and I would crack up at the absurdity. The butterflies in my stomach were quiet until about the time that Kate and I made it down to the water, when they started stretching their wings.

We spent a lot of time watching Sally Edwards motivate colour groups and give them an adjective to insert into mantras like "I am a lightning fast swimmer/biker/runner." Every colour group got their own adjective.  I was going for "bitchin'" but doubted that would be the word of our day and I laughed when Sally asked the crowd, "What kind of swimmer are you?!" and the lady next to me yelled, "SLOW!"  Kate and I did some warming up in the lake and then headed over to watch a swim exit, which was pretty uneventful until there was a huddle on the beach.  A girl clearly needed help getting out of the water and Kate and I both gasped when someone had to carry her out of the water.  We thought maybe she had hurt herself because her legs were limp as she was carried out of the water but someone turned around and said, "She's in a wheelchair."  I looked over at Kate and we both burst into tears simultaneously.  That shut the butterflies up - if she could do it, then certainly I could.

As we lined up behind the group preparing to depart, the butterflies had turned from itty bitty sluggish not-awake-yet creatures into giant, vibrant things, smashing their wings against each other as I inched closer to the water.  Our colour groups word ended up being powerful which would throughout the race prove to be the most inspiring thing I could say to myself.  It really was incredibly helpful to say to myself "I am a powerful biker...heck...I am a powerful woman!" in my moments of weakness throughout the race.

Kate and I had decided (stupidly) to start out at the front to get away from everyone at the start.  I quickly realized that there were lots of 25-30 year-olds who were MUCH faster swimmers than me.  I then also quickly realized that I was hyperventilating because I was so freaked out by the bodies churning the water beside me. I did some breast stroke and took some deep breaths and scooted over to the left side of the pack where there was much more room for me to swim.  Looking back on my time I was only in the water for 24 minutes, which was far shorter than my training swims, which surprised me.  The most difficult part of the swim was that the wind was blowing water into my mouth and I therefore ended up feeling nauseous as I ran from the lake to the transition area.  About the last buoy (i had to look that stupid word up.  booey?  boie? buyie?) I discovered that if I turned almost all the way over to breathe I had a much better time, but of course that was too late. I loved when upon clambering out of the water I grabbed the hand of a volunteer and he asked my name and then announced to the crowd, "CHRISTINA EVERYBODY!" and the crowd cheered for me :)

The transition from swim to bike was not too difficult...I tried to get most of the dirt and grass off my feet (I had a towel near my bike) before I put my socks and shoes on to not much of an avail. I had pre-pinned my number to the shirt Danskin gave us so in about 5 minutes I was ready to go.  The ride was pretty uneventful...I saw Sarah and K walking to the tri site as I headed out on my bike.  There was a fantastic tail wind on the first long stretch and I rode easily, burping lake water the whole way.

Then, I came to my first hill, who I lovingly refer to as "Sneaky Bastard" because you come to a sharp right and BAM there's a hill - pretty much straight up.  I giggled to myself as I heard fellow women turn the corner and mutter expletives that were not-so-ladylike as they came to grips with what was before them.  I made it halfway up and walked when I could shift no lower.  Thankfully a guy at the top had some yummy Clif goo for me to down which gloriously masked the lake water taste in my mouth.  That was the first of two hills I walked the last bit of.  Things that helped me get through the bike were singing Jimmy Eat World's "The Middle" to myself and my meandering mind.  I tried to make sense of why so many women (approximately 3,000 at this race) would be so insane to spend money to do this to ourselves.  I thought about what we as women go through and how good I felt on the bike after warming up on the swim and my will to continue was bolstered by the fact that a trying event had made me stronger and better on the current one.

But enough of the sappy allegories.

The transition from bike to run was a completely different story - by the time I got to my towel and changed shoes I could no longer feel my legs.  I was also ticked because I couldn't find a bobby pin to control my bangs so had to furiously gather my hair into a bun on top of my head.  Sarah and Kyle were there cheering me on and I grabbed Kyle and gave him what he describes as the most disgusting smooch of his life.  I grabbed some yummy Sport Beans which are also, by the way better than burping lake water, and trotted off 'til I was sure K and Sarah could no longer see me, then I walked.  I did SOME running - mostly interval stuff.  I was shocked that the course was cross-country, and tried to run as much as I could.  I was so FLIPPING exhausted at this point that all I wanted to do was stop but then women would run by and encourage me and I would start running again. 

The Danskin folks have a really sick sense of humor because there is a pretty massive hill right before the end of the race.  A woman I walked up next to said that she didn't think she could finish and I spent a good 10 minutes letting her know that if I didn't see her at the finish line I would carry her across myself.  Someone else then came to her side and I trotted off a bit and ended up walking with another woman who was in a red tri suit.  I don't even remember her name, but we started chatting and as other women would run past us and say "You guys are AWESOME!" we would turn to each other and say, "We ARE awesome!" and high five.  We were delirious at this point so we started fantasizing about strawberry margaritas and joking about how super hot we would look crossing the finish line.  About 200 yards from the finish she looked over at me and said, "How ya feeling?" and I replied, "Like running, you?" 

Now, at this point I feel like I should pause and say how uniMAGINABLY exhausted I was.  I mean, I had swam half a mile, biked 12, and nearly run a 5k, I could barely feel my legs and my brain was screaming, "You want to WHAT the last 200 yards?!?!" But we kicked it up and started running.  The announcers turned on some Salsa music (just for me, of course) and Kate, who had finished about 15 minutes ahead of me, came to run across the line. The photos of this are fantastic - we were all 3 laughing and high-fiving each other the whole way :)

I hugged Kate and then I hugged K and immediately burst into big wet weepy tears - I'm even getting a little misty-eyed thinking about it.  I had freaking done it.  I was officially a triathlete.  Get me some pasta. We were handed snacky bags but I got 3/4 of the way through a banana and nearly threw it up. The four of us packed up and headed out of the tri area, and K kept beaming at me and telling me how proud of me he was.  I was still kind of in shock that I had actually made it through.  Maybe I was stronger than I thought I was.  That's what I liked about the tri - that the whole thing was something that no one else could do for me, that it was something I had to do all by myself...and I MADE it!  I confessed to K that I was really glad I wasn't last (Sally Edwards is always the last woman across the finish line...she is awesome)...I finished way ahead of many folks, the whole thing done in about 2.5 hours.  

I went home and showered and we went to a friends house for a cookout, and I ate way more than I thought was humanly possible...then I drove home and passed out.  I slept very VERY well that night, of course I woke up and went to a free Austin Symphony concert out at the Long Center before seriously crashing out.  Kate and I went to Central Market and got lots of yummies and ended up slightly tipsy on 6oz of canned champagne that evening.

A million pounds of love go out to the wonderful Miss Kate for being my training buddy, for leading the way, and for always believing in me.  I wouldn't have been able to complete it nor would I have had nearly as much fun with out her.

So...that's it.  There's a tri on labor day that I'm thinking about either actually doing or training for.  For now I'm just working on running a few days a week and getting on my bike as much as possible.  If anyone out there wants to do the Danskin next year, I will happily train with you. Kate and I decided loosely that we're going to work toward a 5 year plan of doing an Ironman.  I'll be 30. That'll be a good enough excuse and I can do little races along the way.

Bring it.

6.12.2008

starting over

my running totally blows, so I borrowed a book from Kate called Marathon Training for Non-Runners and am going way back and starting from scratch.  Tonight I jogged 5 minutes, walked 5 minutes x3, and will probably again tomorrow.  Next week is jogging 10 minutes, walk 5 minutes x 2.  I don't know that I'll ever do a marathon (unless I do an Ironman, more on that later) but from what I hear training is much better than actually doing it.

I'll actually update soon - I'm still kind of processing the whole triathlon thing.

In other news, I biked to and from work yesterday and need to take a pic of my bruise before it fades because it is MASSIVE!  I kept forgetting to clip out of my pedals and when I did would bonk into the side of the pedal.  The bruise is all kinds of impressive.

6.09.2008

brick

I can't decide what is causing my funk today, whether it's because I'm coming down off such a ridiculous high of a weekend that included Alamo Drafthouse, Taco Shack, grilling out with friends, getting an Epiphone mandolin for our upcoming anniversary, and kicking ass at a triathlon and a free night of swing on the lawn of the Long Center courtesy of the Austin Symphony with the lovely Kate (nearly) ALL with my husband in tow (and Jake to be all jumpy and excited every time we took him out to run around) or that when I walked in to my room after dropping the wonderful husband off on Sunday afternoon before the Symphony concert I was struck with how sad and quiet my room was without him and the dog in it.  

I decided to try and cheer myself up with some dark chocolate and some big happy sunflowers from Central Market.

6.05.2008

biking.

I just Google-mapsed (I love that verbing) it and it's only 8 miles from where I live to work.  EIGHT MILES and it takes me at least half an hour to get to work.  I could do that on my bike.  I think I will.  Tomorrow.

I've had enough of being a hermit and am hungry and left my leftovers at work today...and it's First Thursday so...off to SoCo!  I am going to get some cupcakes from that Airstream I see parked there every day :)

24 hours 'til I see my love!  YES!

6.04.2008

shout out

the background is courtesy of cutest blog on the block 

here's why I'm exhausted and going to bed at 10pm tonight:

Thursday: moved, painted, organized, went to Kenichi for sushi
Friday: ran errands, bought stuff to decorate, drove to NB
Saturday: went tubing, got sunburned
Sunday: went to an AWESOME (awesomely FREE) Bob Schneider concert at Lakeway Resort 
Monday: went running with the Danger folks
Tuesday: biked, ate dinner, went to the Dog and Duck for pint night, tried to retrieve my wallet at Lucky Lounge, stayed for a few songs

I think I jumped a little too quickly back into the Austin scene, and this weekend is going to be jammie packed so I'm going to take the next few days to regroup, maybe sew some stuff :)

Wel...come...to...the...Danger Zone

That's the name our little Austin fit club has come up with because, obviously, we have a built-in theme song.  And yes we're probably going to make shirts.  Anyway, it's this little group of folks who's committed to working out together - Monday we ran (in like 100+ degree weather, blegh) and today (Tuesday) we biked Shoal Creek. Tomorrow is swimming in Barton Springs and then tomorrow by golly I think I'm going to need a break.  I can feel the introvert in me struggling toward the surface because let's face it: I've been busily reacquainting myself with all things Austin and old friends, and it's kind of time to spend some quiet time alone.  

Internship training is going quite well - I'm in with the new hires so it's a lot of "don't lick the patients, don't share needles etc. etc." but the coolest things by far have been today's extinguishing of fires (literal fires) and the lady who came and spoke of her "recovery" (and by recovery I mean "management") of her schizophrenia.  I take lots of naps during break times, usually not because I am tired but because it is so dang difficult to sit in that dang room all day. I think tomorrow there will be a bit of variation in my schedule, which I'm excited about. 

What I'm also excited about is first and foremost snuggling all weekend with the hubs (ONLY THREE MORE DAYS!!  LESS THAN THAT EVEN!) and seeing the Wallners, and the Danskin Triathlon!  I've learned over the last couple days that I am NOT a fast runner or biker, but I'm totally sure I'll make it through.  On the bike ride, a guy asked if we were training for the Danskin and wished us luck - it was a total confidence booster :)  Today I need to get my back tire checked out 'cos it keeps going flat, and get my clips/pedals put in place...THEN I need to practice to make sure I don't tump over on Sunday :)

5.30.2008

Day 1.5

This morning was rather hectic - I freaked out because I had lost my keys and was supposed to run errands and drop off some books and things in Lewisville but after losing my car keys for a good hour (they were on the kitchen table under some napkins - doh) I just stayed home and waited for K to get home/have lunch/help me pack and decided it would be okay for me to send the books back tomorrow in the mail.

I made it to Austin around 4pm and set to work painting my room and getting everything put together - it took about five and a half hours to get the room painted, all my stuff moved in, the light switch and one outlet replaced (there are more to do but those two took too long, but I still feel like wonder woman 'cos I did those two ;op) I have a closet but no rod for my clothes so I'm living out of about four suitcases right now.

Carlos went running at Zilker and upon arriving back home informed me we had reservations at Kenichi at 10:30pm.  Why eat so late? I live with musicians, and the unfortunate thing for my upcoming eight-to-fiver is that we are ALL night owls.  We hopped on Carlos's motorcycle and all I could think of at first was all the statistics of head injuries and a client-to-be of mine at my internship that oops fell off the back of a truck one night and hit his head and now he's a not at all walking, barely talking individual because no I wasn't wearing a helmet.  But when we came over the hill on South 1st and the skyline stretched before us, I forgot everything except the exhilarating love I have for this city, for the opportunity to be here. I even for half a second forgot about how bummed I am that K isn't here with me, but it all rushed back rather quickly. Dinner was of course incredible, and then we walked down and had a double espresso at Halcyon.  After all that I have a hard time believing that things are going to be any more awesome.  I told C that us living together is going to be way more fun than it would've been when I was in college because I've grown up a lot.  I'm excited about being roomies with C and F - I've never lived with boys (except K) and have also never lived so closely with musicians.  It was cool earlier because I got to hear them rehearse and write music...it was a cool insight to the whole process. 

So tomorrow - C leaves on a trip and I'm going to hopefully get my room/the bathroom more up to working order.  I have dreams of running at Zilker and getting my bike fixed but seeing as it's 3:14 am it's looking less and less likely.  Saturday I'll be tubing it up with my NB boys and Sunday there may be a Bob Schneider show in the works.  Who knows.  Then I start my job MONDAY!  Crazy.

5.28.2008

i FOUND it!


After doing some research, K decided to use Benjamin Moore paint or more specifically, the Eco-Spec variety. Because I painted and re-painted several rooms, I was thankful that this stuff was so low odor. I mean like, freakishly low-odor. Also, the paint is fantastic. The Eco-Spec only comes in gallons and cannot be used for really saturated colours, but it's definitely worth a consideration.

Blessed

I think Sarah has me scheduled for something fun every day this weekend just so I won't get lonely my first weekend in Austin. I forgot to mention this in the last post but the other reason I picked Austin is because I knew being away from K and the kind of work I would be doing, I would need a tremendous support group. I am continually awed and humbled by my awesome friends :)

5.27.2008

Accountability

Sunday (sick)
Monday (sick)
Tuesday AM - ran .84 miles, PM - planning on one more bikram session w/Candace :)

I hate that I got sick and had to not work out those days. Grrr...

5.26.2008

3 Days

I am moving to Austin on Thursday. Packing commences tomorrow because today I am recovering from a Memorial Day/Weekend camping trip that was LOTS of fun, but I drank beer and ate meat in the same day and it's wreaking unholy havoc on my intestines. Lesson learned.

K and I went to Ikea and got me something to sleep on...I've gotta sew up a cover for the little futon (which will by the way be on sale in 6 months) but my machine is still packed up, so I'll wait 'til I get stuff set up and can make a run to the fabric store. I'm taking a very minimalist approach to this living situation - the room is not all that large and quite frankly all I need besides somewhere to sleep is a dresser, a closet, and maybe a lamp or two. I get to paint it, too, so I have to decide on that colour. Hm.

Anyway, I cried for the first time last night about not being able to vent and cuddle with the hubs every night...sometimes I think I'm totally insane for doing this. Then I think "Hey - I've never lived on my own before, this'll be a grand adventure." Something somewhere in between is where I'm sure I will land. I decided on Austin because well, I love Austin, duh. It will be so interesting to get to experience the city not as a student with band and class obligations. There are some other really important things to remember. First, I have little to no experience in the psychiatric arena. This setting will have me way outside my comfort zone and hopefully will provide me with opportunities to grow. Speaking of growing, I will be by myself, yes, but I have to finish my thesis, study up for my orals, and also study for my music therapy board certification. This will give me the opportunity to develop professionally and personally and not have to worry about all the little things that go along with having a house, a dog, a husband - cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, taking care of the dog, picking up after myself and someone else. Do not misunderstand me...I thoroughly enjoy being married and all the little things it entails...I am just...easily distracted :) and if I don't have a house to futs with, I'll get much more done in terms of schoolwork. Especially because 9 times out of 10 if I have something to do and K says "Hey let's watch a movie/go eat somewhere/work on stuff in the garden" I'm going to do that and procrastinate on school stuff. Finally, I'll be done in December. That right there is motivating me in so many ways it's almost difficult for me to endure these three days and just get started already.

So yeah - working at the nut house. I'm sure I'll have lots of great stories.

5.24.2008

Accountability

5/23 - Rested
5/24 - AM Bikram, sweated more than the first time...seriously. Niagra-like sweating. I think my cold is gone, though, and I can sure breathe more easily. Totally rad.

I have a 5 days for $5 thing at the yoga place, so that'll be my workout for the next couple days. Much needed. I did research on Christianity and yoga, because it's taboo for lots of folks. One side of the argument says that the poses are inseparable from Hindu faith practice, which I understand. However, how can I commune with Krishna during those poses? I do not worship Krishna, don't even know him/her. I do know Jesus, and pray during yoga - I breathe out negativity and breathe in Peace, Grace, and Understanding. I don't say Namaste, do not bow at the end, I just give thanks to God for the hour of peace and quiet I've just enjoyed.

Thoughts?

5.22.2008

hear that?

it's the sound of my ovaries. screaming.

maybe because i've made thousands of trips up and down the stairs to my apartment carrying loaded boxes today and am finally coming to grips with the fact that we have a HOUSE and it's totally awesome and cozy and totally us...but, I was sent a link to one of my best friend's newborn baby daughter's first photo shoot and i cried.

5.21.2008

Accountability

Monday: AM - Ran .5 miles, PM - walked 30 minutes
Tuesday: AM - Walked 3 miles, PM - Biked 13 miles
Wednesday: AM - Ran .67 miles
Thursday: AM - Walked 2.2 miles, PM - hot yoga for an hour

5.20.2008

still doing that triathlon thing

between the last weeks of school, moving, being sick, and grandpa passing away my triathlon training routine has completely gone to crap. I am confident enough in my swimming and biking to know that I can make it through those two portions of the race. It's just the running that's been tough. The loss of my beloved iPod was also a setback because I pretty much can't run or bike without music. Anyhow, I ran a little more than half a mile yesterday morning and walked for 30 minutes last night. This morning, I walked my dog 3 miles and plan to either do the same this evening or do a swim or bike session. I plan to keep the following workout schedule: run/swim/run/bike/run/swim/run/bike etc. because I need to work up my running slowly so I don't hurt myself but also get back into the biking/swimming thing. I hope I make it through this thing with a smile on my face...

whirlwind

So last week we got everything moved in on the same day that my grandfather-in-law passed away so it was kind of a scramble to get things taken care of before we had to leave town for 5 days.

Anyone who's been married knows that it takes a few years to get really comfy with the in-laws and I felt like this trip, perhaps because the nature of it, I was just another one of the crowd. It was nice because my mom even flew up for the wake & the funeral. I played my first funeral at the request of grandma K - "Jesus Loves Me" and "You Are My Sunshine" both of which are on the Music Therapy Top 10 List. One of the aunts even procured a guitar for me in St. Louis, which was a total blessing because the options for getting my guitar up there were a) Take it as a carryon, but it was outside the width/height requirement b) Check it (no way man) or c) BUY IT ITS OWN SEAT ON THE PLANE. Does anyone actually DO option c? Anyway, all the grandkids got up to sing during the funeral, which went pretty well until the last line of "You Are My Sunshine" where we all choked at the same time. I was told it was good and that we just kept singing but I don't remember any of that. Grandpa was in the Navy during WWII so they had the whole military ceremony for his burial which was absolutely beautiful.

So now we're back home - the hubs was sick yesterday but we got a considerable amount of stuff cleared away...I have a TON of pictures and such to post but I can't for the life of me find the cord that I need to do that ;op

5.13.2008

sadness

Grandpa Kleisly passed away yesterday so we're going to St. Louis tomorrow evening. I'll write more later. Sorry, guys.

5.11.2008

house hilariousness

okay so between finishing up school and getting ready to move (TOMORROW!) I've been terribly lax in updating.  Here's a few headlines (I'll post more to this when I get the chance)

1. We finished the fence!
2. my husband passed out!
3. Jake escaped his harness...a little like Houdini, kind of amazing!
4. I swung and missed on YET ANOTHER paint colour!
5. Need to make salsa?  I will in a few months be totally ready for it!

5.06.2008

one of those days...

The plan for the day has fallen miserably through the cracks.  So much for productivity.  It started with a big red blob of a rain storm this morning that crashed through Carrollton at about 8:30am and made the power go off.  So, I couldn't shower OR eat breakfast.  When stuff finally got back to normal, I made it to school, put together the new SAMT president's binder, then had to go to the student union office to get sandwiches for our intern party tonight where NEITHER of the folks I needed to talk to were in, and then I realized that I had left my phone at home so I had to drive ALL the way back to Carrollton to get it because I'd left it as my contact whenever the union people got back.  I got home, searched EVERYWHERE for my phone and couldn't find it, then remembered this morning when I reached in the back seat to get my backpack...yup, my phone was in the back seat the whole time.  

My best friend Haley once asked, "Is it really frustrating, being you?"  I think we all know the answer to that question.

In other news, I registered for the triathlon today.  Should probably get back into training every day.  Also, I got 7 paint samples up on the wall yesterday to cover over barfy blue.  Hopefully we can decide in the next couple days.

5.05.2008

If I looked on the bedside table next to you, what would I find?
My bible, a lamp, a journal, and some tissues

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
Depends on if anyone's home or not.

Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in?
Some are folded, some are thrown in.

Sleep on your back or stomach?
Side

Are you a cuddler?
YES YES YES

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
Nothing right now, it's all packed away

Something that happened today that made you angry?
Nothing at all - I've been up since 5 and have been by myself, so...nothing really.

What were you doing before this survey?
Catching up on internet stuff, ABOUT to finish my paper and then I saw this.  Thanks, D.

What will you do after the survey?
Finish a term paper

Marriage or living together?
Mawedge

What shirt are you wearing now?
A black halter with a purple half-sweater

Do you sing?
It's part of my job description

Do you de-label your beer bottles?
every last one.  

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Hide them, mostly

Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
of course

First thing you do when you wake up?
blow my nose

Ever had surgery?
Wisdom teeth taken out

Last argument you got into with?
hubs - it probably had to do with moving/house renovations

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
I don't buy water bottles any more

What's one good thing about your best friend?
she's been there for 20 years and will be there forever :)

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
Depends on if my sleepmate is snoring or not

Current song on myspace?
I recently ditched myspace. 

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
gosh, yes.

If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you?
of COURSE! Unless it was a poo-flinging monkey

What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?
nothing - just my  iChat

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
moving to Austin, tailgating, starting my internship, living in the same city as most of my bestest girl friends :)

Who are you texting?
nobody right this minute

It's Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
Well before this week I would have said at a music therapy session and then working on schoolwork, but for the next few weeks it's going to be working on the house and moving and then after THAT I'll get off work at 5pm and probably go somewhere to work on my thesis.

Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
My husband.  Honestly.  Oh, and maybe James McAvoy.

Your Christmas list consists of?
Lowe's/Home Depot/Anthropologie gift cards :)

You're going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
H&M

You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
American Eagle

How do you feel about your hair?
Thinking about dying it blonde.

What movie is in your DVD player?
Nothing.  I think the DVD player is packed already.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
SPAIN.

How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
What matters is that I still get butterflies when Kyle looks at me :)

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I got some English breakfast tea and am overlooking the lake at Mozart's

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
I'm blessed with a few - boys and girls.

What would you change about your life right now?
Nothing, really.

What’s the best feeling in the world?
Waking up realizing that the hubs's made me some of his world famous blueberry muffins.  ;o)

not as hippie as i thought

I had dinner with the folks at the Whitehall Coop last night and it was a really good time!  I showed up just in time to harvest chard from the garden and I helped make a rockin' salad - the girl I cooked with made homemade pesto with pecans and basil from the garden and the neighbors brought over some of the most awesome garlic hummus I've ever had.  It was a great night meeting lots of new people and such, but I left with a tummy ache.  I think it was the radishes.  I also had the realization that while it's a really cool place to live, I don't think I could do it.  So, I'm not going to.  I'm moving in with my cousin at the end of May :)  I can't believe my internship starts in a few short weeks!

5.04.2008

breathing out, breathing in

breathing out three years of the hardest work I've ever done, the best grades I've ever made, the most progress I've made on myself as an individual ever in my short lifetime

breathing out awkwardness, anger I've held on to, friends who have done me wrong, times I have not been my true self.

breathing in the air of possibilities, joy, faith, happiness, peace, success, possibilities and above all, love.

The damp air of the hill country intoxicates me - brings me back to me :)  I so totally needed it.

Dinner with the hippies tonight - do I bring flowers or maybe sangria fixin's?

I know knowing me this goes without saying but I love love LOVE Austin.  Like, in a jumping on the couch, shout it from the rooftops kind of way.

5.03.2008

things I learned from my sisters

I am not the generally warm-fuzzy let's all talk and cry about our feelings sort of girl all the time so it may come as a surprise that I was involved with 3 different sororities during my undergrad. Probably the most...controversial? (not sure if that is the right word) decision I made (maybe controversial in my own head) was to join TBS my senior year of band.  I recently had a professor ask me why I would join a sorority my senior year and I think at the time...no wait, I know...that I had something to prove in terms of that sorority.

I came to school fresh from a high school program where I loved people, loved to serve my band (how dorky is THAT statement right there?), and just loved service in general.  When I got to UT I did probably every service event that TBS put out there, not because I wanted to get into the organization necessarily but because I just liked hanging out with the people, liked serving.  I had no way of knowing that I was being judged on how good I was as a person by several members.  It became clear as years went by and I never got a bid that I was maybe not cut out to serve the band with this elite group.  I didn't understand it, other people didn't understand it either, but the way the system was set up let lots of personal issues get in the way of who got into the organization.  My husband was even president of the brother-organization and he didn't know what was going on, but it was still fun (albeit awkward) to show up with him to functions.  Not awkward for me so much, but I could see it in everyone else's eyes, as if my worth came from whether others thought I was good enough.  I remember the day after everyone got their bids my dear friend and I went to band rehearsal (her story is similar in some ways to mine) and I said, "I feel like everyone is looking at us." Like, that it was some huge tragedy we hadn't been picked.  Again.

So somehow the rules got tweaked and bent (no really, the person who was president at the time really did change everything) and I was given a bid, apparently by unanimous vote.  My roommate at the time also got one, and she definitely was going to take it because she had been given a bid earlier and then dropped out because of school stuff.  I was a wreck about it.  There was so much drama wrapped up into this decision - was I walking away from the other two sororities (both which were in different ways very...opinionated about this one)? The president -who was also a good friend at the time- was convinced that I was going to show up at a meeting and burn the bid, and I nearly didn't show up to one of the first things we did together.  I remember driving to the place we were supposed to meet completely in tears.  My roommate talked me through it and said that I could drop out at any time, to just come to this meeting and see how it goes.

I ended up getting all the way through pledging and becoming a member, then realized that serving when I had to write down all the hours and being forced to show up to events that were sometimes pointless but supposed to make us bond as sisters was making me into a really unhappy person.  Top it off with the deterioration of a friendship with aforementioned president and my decision to attend the national music therapy conference in Austin (*sidenote: I had JUST decided to seriously start looking into MT and the conference was IN TOWN and my sister had completely paid the $300 super late fee or whatever for me to go) instead of a 24 day of talking about who should be allowed in the organization and the fact that that got me put on probation in the organization was a recipe for disaster.  I tell people now that if I knew then what I know now about TBS, I wouldn't have joined it.

Except, my pledge class. 

Most of the girls were freshmen when we got bids, and that means that they came into band when I was New Man (I think they call it New Member now) Advisor.  We're a seriously motley crew (crue?) of ages and experiences and personalities, which was to be expected in a group of 20 something girls.  I cannot adequately put into words what the time spent with these girls did for me.  They were the ones who kept me going, kept me sane when I had to deal with all kinds of BS that last year and a half.  I had way more fun getting to know them than pretty much anyone else in the organization, and we as a group in our absurd, quirky, irreverent way made a place for ourselves in the legacy of TBS.  I mean, during one event we were put in a tent and made to write a poem about how wonderful and glorious the organization is so what did we do?  Slam poetry. And a haiku.  Don't get me wrong, we loved band and loved the organization, but I think we were from the get-go over the you're-going-to-feel-nostalgic-about-this-because-someone-else-is-telling-me-that's-how-I-should-feel thing.  It took us a long time to really bond as a class, but I think all the awkwardness forced us to be genuine with each other. One of us said last night that we're going to end up ruling the world one day - one is in Hollywood, one in New York at school, one is in London, others in graduate school, all living their dreams.

I was going to be in Austin anyway this weekend, and when I found out that our last two pledge sisters are graduating and being "roasted" I tried to get our whole pledge class together to be there, which turned into 4 people at dinner and then just 2 at the event, with one sending love via Email.  It was a surprise, and the looks on the faces of the girls was totally priceless.  When we FINALLY got around to talking about you girls, I was truly honored to have started out in this organization with you. So many girls had much to say about how strong, inspiring, and rock star y'all are which made me giggle because I vividly remember your first days in band.  I treasure all of the pledge class but I think it is poetic that you two were the last ones standing, because y'all are far more rock star than any of us.  L and B, you are fabulously strong women, and you know that, and you don't compromise yourselves in any way for anyone, which is something I really admire.  B you are so shamelessly smart and humble at the same time that it baffles me and getting to talk to you nearly every day is a joy. L you are so genuine and hilarious and I've never really been able to trust someone who is as nice to everyone as you, but I do trust you.  Last night I remembered what a huge impact individual people can have on each other's lives, and y'alls beautiful words of wisdom, advice to do what makes you happy, to really truly care about other people, to really listen to people, honestly was like blowing on dying embers in my soul. So from the bottom of my heart, thanks for that. Also, hearing the love that you guys have for the organization and for people in general reflected back at you was just a testament to how wonderful y'all are, and I was so proud of y'all.  Happy graduation, folks - go show the world how it's done.

5.01.2008

little boy ____ come blow your horn...

Rarely do I do things well when I am pressed for time.  A fabulous example of this is when I ordered wedding invitations.  Not only did I not order enough, I accidentally put Austin instead of Arlington on the return address part (thank goodness the zip code was right) and then I misspelled the in-law side of the family's last name.  It was a mess, a mess I attribute to the fact that I was trying to get through my first year of graduate school.

We've had lots of conversations about what colour the living room/kitchen area should be.  I want warm in the living room, green in the kitchen, while my better half wants the opposite.  We even went as far as deciding on a greyish blue for the living room.  Well, even though it's my last week of class we decided that I was perfectly capable of picking out a paint colour by myself so I went over to the paint store in Plano and picked out (what I thought was) a lovely shade of grey/blue.  I got home and with the help of my lovely and talented assistant Candace got it up on the walls. It was nighttime and she graciously let me obsess all night about the paint color because it was not in fact coming out blue/gray but LITTLE BOY'S ROOM BLUE.  If I get to the house later today I'll take a picture.  And next week, when all the stress of school is done, I'm painting over it.

4.30.2008

last week of school! FOREVER!

Well, probably not forever, I do plan on getting my Ph.D. some day.  I just found out that UTSA may be starting a new music psychology Ph.D. soon, so I'll have to keep my eye on that!

Today I was completely floored by a music therapy experience.  I was toward the end of a session with my bilingual PPCD kiddos, the group that receives music therapy in only English.  I brought a chicken puppet and some baby chick finger puppets so we could do a song called "Los Pollitos Dicen" that I had translated to English from Spanish.  When I got all the way through the song the first time, suddenly this cute little girl started singing the song in SPANISH and the whole rest of the class chimed in.  Why is this a big deal?  It's sort of pivotal to my paper, that you cannot suppress culture, that it's part of who we are, and by doing music therapy only in English with clients who speak another language is just not going to cut it any more.  I was seriously moved to tears on my way home because it was really beautiful.  

I'm going to go paint my living room - hooray!  The hubs I have been going round and round and round on colours and we've finally settled on cool for the living room and warm for the kitchen.  We've also chosen to use Benjamin Moore's Eco Spec, which has lower VOC's.  I'll post pics soon!

4.29.2008

can't...stop...watching....

if I could only figure out a way to incorporate this song into a therapy session...

4.28.2008

renovating a house is fun

(via AIM chat)

Me: so, if we pick paint colours today/tomorrow i can just go to the store myself

Hubby: do you want to get test colors?

Me: umm, sure.

Hubby: Ok, if you get test colors then when do you want to put them up and when would you want to pick and put up the final color?

Me: earliest I could do test colours would be Wednesday at 3:00pm.  I could also put them up right after that. I don't think that I have piano class on Thursday morning, so I could pick up final colour before noon and put up final colour after 3:00pm on Thursday.  Why?

Hubby: I don't think you could do test colors on Wednesday and then the final color Thursday, you have to take time to look at the samples in different light.

Me: OMG I am so not this anal.

Hubby: Then do you want to just skip the samples?

Me: Besides, blandy mcblanderson, how different could off-grey look in morning, noon, and evening light?

Hubby: You'd be surprised.

4.27.2008

Renovations Day 2: A Tale of Two Oz Posts

The fence was down by the first day, as well as some post holes dug. The hubs even went all the way back to Frisco early in the morning to return the post-puller. There's a section in our driveway where there's a square hole where a post used to be, now all there is in the hole is a rotted post that was cut off at the level of the concrete.  We're now wanting a gate to go there, so he found a way to put a post there - with the help of an oz post that he would drive through the old wood.  To keep the top part together, he stuck a metal pipe so he could bang on it with a sledgehammer.  I was super nervous holding onto that thing. By the time we got the post mostly in the ground, the pipe was pretty mangled. So mangled, in fact that we couldn't get it back out of the post.














The hubs even went to the hardware store and got a bit for some saw tool he had and he tried to saw the metal out.  Unfortunately, the blade went SHINK! and split in two in oh, about the first two seconds.

So, he went BACK to Frisco and rented the post-puller again (we had this idea about 2:25 and the place closed at 3:00 and Frisco is definitely 30 minutes away...) and I went to the Lowe's in Plano to get another oz post.  He pulled out the old post and then spent the next half hour or so hammering the new post back in. We got around the previous problem by getting a heavier duty pipe as well as end caps for the pipe so that it would be more difficult to get stuck.  We also had the bright idea to shove some paper towels into the post hole in order to cushion the blow.  As you can see in the picture, it still took quite a beating.

I told him he was my hero for finally getting that thing in. (insert kate, sarah, and michelle giggling here)

Renovations: Day 1

Sweet friends showed up early to help us do stuff - Candace and I set to cleaning the place up and the boys left for Frisco to get a post puller to pull part of our fence down:
That is certainly not the best picture, but you can at least see the fence.  It took Candace and I all morning and two mimosas apiece to get the entire living room scrubbed, taped, and all the fixtures removed.

I knew Kate and Sarah were driving up and when they got there, Michelle jumped out of the car also!  I was so excited!  Once the trio of power arrived, I gave them a tour and then we all got to work and everything went MUCH more quickly.  We got the living room primed, as well as the
guest bath and finally after a dinner break, the master bedroom.  Two gallons of Kilz and many "that's what she said" jokes later, we finished for the day.

House Closing

















We closed on our house this past Wednesday :)  it was supposed to be Tuesday, but we couldn't get funded because our signatures looked different than what they did on our IDs.  So, we had keys but couldn't go in the house, but we had a pizza party that night anyway.  Hooray house!

4.21.2008

Eco Chic, Vol. I

I followed the advice in Real Simple today for repurposing glass bottles and came up with a super sweet centerpiece. I have other pictures of the actual various bottles...beer and pasta, mostly, with a small Starbucks liquor bottle thrown in for kicks.

We close on our house on Earth Day, which I'm not taking as coincidence at all (and no we didn't plan it like that). Since we're doing renovations to the house, we're trying to be health-minded and do the extra research in order to find the paint/countertops/flooring that is sustainable/recycled/low VOC and whatnot. Sometimes we're creative about it, sometimes we totally steal the ideas from other cooler people who went green way before we were born (Like Ed Bagley, Jr.) but I do know this - we've been given the responsibility of redoing this house and we've got my mom's chemical sensitivities to take into consideration and just flat don't want to live in a house that does more harm to the planet than good. Also, when we decide to have kids this blog will get REAL interesting, and though they might get laughed at at school for having hummus and sprouts in their lunch pack, they'll know that the hubs and I are doing everything we can even now to keep them healthy by surrounding them with as natural stuff as we can.Plus, I'm sure we'll make mistakes along the way (I mean, so far I have the black thumb of death when it comes to gardening) but the point is for this to be a community effort and we can all learn from each other.

Our ever-growing list of things we want to do at said awesome abode are:

1. Recycle - you should've seen the look on the lady's face at City Hall when I told her I was really, REALLY excited that we wouldn't have to drive 15 minutes to recycle any more. This morning as I opened a new squeezy tube of toothpaste I also considered that we so easily think to recycle things in the kitchen but don't really think about all the boxes and plastic we toss in our bathroom receptacle. The solution is either dig through the trash, get TWO trash cans, or design something suitable. You know which one I'll pick. Yes yes, Nerd on both of those.

2. Compost - I used to compost with my dad when I was younger and I was at once totally grossed out by the coffee-puke smell and also fascinated by the process, especially when worms get involved. I've done some reading about this and seriously that's going to be the first thing I do when we move in - figure out where to compost in our yard so our dog doesn't roll in it (which is going to be tough, he loves disgusting stuff).

3. Play Chicken - We are seriously considering buying baby chicks and having our own chickens, and we're looking into our city's building code. Not a rooster, we don't want MORE chickens, and only 3. Why? Well, apparently chicken poo is good for the soil so we can, er, harvest that. Plus, fresh tasty eggs. Remember, I'm not vegan.

4. ORGANIC GARDENING! - I know I said I have the black thumb of death but grrrl, I can grow tomatoes like you wouldn't even believe. Or at least, I did last summer. My in-laws have this wonderful back yard where during the spring and summer when we visit they've been known to grab tomatoes, squash, herbs, and chives from the raised beds and throw them on the grill with the pork loin. Seriously, this stuff makes my toes tingle! I love nothing more than grabbing fresh fresh fresh herbs and throwing them into whatever we're cooking. We've got a bigger front yard than back yard, so figuring this part out will take some time, but I'm stoked. I think we have enough room/sunlight for a raised bed immediately behind our house, so we'll look into that first. The hubs wants to plant an avocado tree, tomato plants, onions, jalepenos and cilantro so we can have fresh guacamole and salsa in the Spring and Summer. See? He loves being married to a Latina :) Also, the lady who owned the house before us did the Tru Green stuff, but after talking about it, we decided we don't want to put a crapload of chemicals on our lawn. The hubs has ordered two organic gardening books from Amazon so far, I'll let you know what they are when they come in and if they're actually worth their salt.

So, there's a start. If anyone out there wants to post ideas, experiences, etc. I would LOVE to have good, green conversations, especially from people who have personal experiences with this because I've really just started this and haven't done a lot of research yet.

Ciao!

the last iPod update, maybe.

So today I called the TWU DPS and the conversation went like this:

Me: I am calling to see if someone's turned in a silver iPod with-
Copper: YES!
Me: WHAT!? Okay - does it have little black and white earphones with Koss written on the side?
Copper: Let me check.
[pause]
Copper: Does it have a yellow fish on it? And did you say GREEN earphones?
Me: No.

sigh.

4.18.2008

starve a cold

My body is a funny thing.  It likes to take allergies and turn them into something dark and sinister, so last night I woke myself up coughing painfully and explosively at least five or six times during the night.  I'm mostly pissed because I have to cancel a camping trip that I was really excited about going on, but keeping my fellow campers up with my death rattle is no way for anyone to spend a Saturday night, really.

Being sick really messes with my head creatively.  My session on Thursday was uncharacteristically disorganized and overwhelming for me, partly due to cold meds and also because I can't breathe very well and when I can't breathe, I can't sing.  Like this morning, I woke completely without a voice and started panicking when it got to 9am and I had a 10:30 session looming.  I heated up a small cuppa soup, which gave me my voice back but during the session I had to get the kids singing then mouth the words.  I spent 11:00 - 2:30 in complete silence, drinking as much water as I could handle, and taking an hour and a half nap.  The kids in the afternoon class were in rare form, as they are every Friday, and I think being sick also helped me to relax and think a little bit, so the session went fairly well, even though I didn't particularly like the songs I was using.  

I'd been really a chaotic mess internally until yesterday I requested a relaxation from my professor who is a Guided Imagery and Music fellow, and it rocked my face off, and me back to center.  I hate to sound trite but gosh, I really love music.

Anyway.  We were going to go see the South Austin Jug Band tonight in Deep Ellum but nobody in the house is really up for it, and more importantly it's BATTLESTAR NIGHT!

4.17.2008

hear that?

Storm sirens twice in two weeks?  It's my lucky April!

4.16.2008

kinda like...

I decided today that getting a new house is much like being a bride.  Nobody in the bridal industry gives a rip that this dress is THE ONE and OMG I LOVE THESE SHOES and DON'T YOU THINK GELATO INSTEAD OF CAKE is just THE MOST?!  Much like, nobody cares that I'm setting up water and gas and getting a fence building permit in OUR VERY FIRST HOUSE THAT WE CLOSE ON NEXT WEEK because here baby, it happens every day.

Still.  I'm excited.  :)

4.15.2008

you know what happens when you say "YES! I haven't gotten sick this year!"?

You get sick.  I think it all started when I took Jake for an hour-long walk down into the neighborhood where people were cleaning up their respective pieces of Destruction left over from last week.  There were lawnmowers, chainsaws, leaf blowers, and other bits of gas-powered allergy-inducing paraphernalia going to town.  I went to bed Sunday night with allergies and woke up with a sinus AND a respiratory infection.  What sucks about that is while I could skip my music history class and guitar lesson, I could not skip my music therapy sessions at 10:30 and at 2:30 because they're part of my thesis.  So, I went, then picked up stuff to make delicious cure-all chicken soup which I'm pretty sure rocked, even though I couldn't taste a darn thing.


Sleeping last night was hindered not only by my coughing and only bare ability to breathe but also by the fact that my dog has little nubbin feet and an elizabethan collar on at the moment. I took Jake to the dog park on Sunday to meet Nutmeg, a dog that belongs to some friends of mine.  He ran and ran and RAN around with her but also with an italian greyhound.  When I went to pick him up, I noticed he had ripped the pads on his paws - like, had little hangey bits of skin and was bleeding.  So the next morning we took him to the vet and they...made him look like that.  He's been wandering into walls and just stopping and whining like COME GET ME OFF OFF THIS THING I CAN'T MOVE and when the hubs put him in the crate last night he whined, turned his back to us, then kept whacking his left paw against the side of the crate in indignation. It was pretty hilarious, and also very sad so so we took pity on him and let him and the E-collar sleep in our room...first it was on his pillow in the corner and then sometime in the wee hours of the evening he jumped up on our bed (which i thought was funny, considering he couldn't get himself unstuck from the wall earlier in the day) and snuggled in right smack between us.

So anyway, today I dragged myself out of bed to get to piano class, then came home and fell asleep around 11am and just now woke up.  Don't be jealous, I feel like ass.

4.13.2008

ketchup

The hubs and I woke to the sounds of tornado sirens going off at 3:30am last Thursday morning.  We jumped out of bed and turned on the TV and saw this:

So we grabbed the dog and huddled in the guest bathtub for about 30 minutes while the storm raged, the power flickered, and the hubs visually assessed the integrity of the structure we were huddled in.  Not a fun night.  We also live across from a firestation, so we heard sirens going off the whole rest of the night. The next day I was completely shattered, but I did snap some photos:



So yeah, it's been rather exciting around here.

4.09.2008

iPod update

I asked my music history class this morning if anyone has seen an iPod floating around and turns out I left it in the student lounge during lunch.  Everyone in my class asked, "The silver one with the cool headphones?" Apparently lots of people saw it, one girl even moved it from beside the couch to the table...and then it sprouted legs.

Sigh.

4.08.2008

time to get off our collective tushes and do something.

TxDOT is proposing a 6-lane highway looping the city of New Braunfels.  This is a developer-driven project that will increase urban sprawl from San Antonio to Austin.  The proposed project will cut through undeveloped land on top of the Edwards Aquifer Recharge Zone as well as pristine farmland.  The resulting construction and development will do unimaginable harm to the environment as well as the heritage and tradition of the New Braunfels community.

The final NB Outer Loop Proposal can be viewed here.  The stated goal of designating the corridor now is to plan traffic concerns 30 years from now, but there is no guarantee that TxDOT will wait 30 years to complete this.  If approved, they can build it how and when they want in a way that benefits TxDOT most, not the community.

Things to consider:
- How will the loop effect the environment, particularly sections on top of the Edwards Aquifer Recharge Zone and across the Guadalupe River?
- What impact will the new development this loop brings have on the heritage, tradition, and community of New Braunfels and surrounding areas?
- It is well known that TxDOT is in enormous debt and has adopted the policy of tolling all new highway construction.  Will TxDOT be building the NB loop as a toll road to route traffic from I-10 to I-35 or will it be a part of the greater trans-Texas corridor network?

How you can help:
- SPREAD THE WORD about the loop proposal and the townhall meetings going on in NB.
- Write letters to the City Council and the County Commissioners voicing your opposition.
- Write letters to the editor of the Herald-Zeitung.
- Research TxDOT, highway construction, toll roads, environmental impact, developer motivation, etc. as much as possible so we can make the best arguments to city officials.

This proposal is clearly not the most responsible way to account for future grown in the NB area.


Interestingly, Robert Redford has also recently submitted a film to Sundance that is definitely worth checking out. Click here for the trailer.

thinker..

after a full 30-minutes of facebook stalking new friends, I found this quote:

"Whenever we find that our religious life is making us feel that we are good - above all, that we are better than someone else - I think we may be sure that we are being acted on, not by God, but by the devil.  The real test of being in the presence of God is, that you either forget about yourself altogether or see yourself as a small dirty object.  It is better to forget about yourself altogether."
C.S. Lewis

I wish I had found that quote in middle school.

grrr

i lost the hook-ey up thing for my iPod, so i went to Target and bought another one, and now i've lost my iPod.  it must be the end of the school year or something...

4.07.2008

Rainy days and Mondays rock my face off

So, I survived today, and not even by just barely, which was totally rad and unexpected.  I woke up at 6am, showered and got ready for a music history exam in Denton at 8 which I ACED and then drove to Lewisville to do music therapy with a new group of cutie-pie PPCD kids, then drove back to Denton for an SAMT officer's meeting and guitar lesson, drove BACK to Lewisville for music therapy session #2 (at this point I'm asking myself why the hell I chose to write a thesis instead of a lazy professional paper), vented with my mentor for about an hour, then drove BACK to Denton to revise the SAMT constitution, order pizza, and preside over an SAMT meeting.  Totally drove like 120 miles today.  Now all I want to do is let my brain melt in front of Gossip Girl.

for Daina

Dude girl you are so right I am totally remiss in *not* writing about my 104-degree fevered, almost-3-year-old nephew on the spring break trip and how I had to rethink my whole wanting-to-have-kids thing. Except, he really was cute looking for Easter eggs and that time we wanted pizza and then he took a bite of pizza, spit it out, and said, "I want eggs." and then after you made him eggs pushed his plate back and said "I want apple."  

But seriously, I do envy your patience, girl - you are an incredibly wonderful, loving, fun mother and Michael should be nicer to you ;)

4.02.2008

bored...

I was not tagged, but here you go anyway:

10 years ago:  I was 15.  I just unearthed that journal.  And then I burned it.

Things on my to-do list today:
read and outline chapters for music history exam on Monday
pick up mom from airport
pick up agency approval letter from Lillie J.
pack another box 
SAMT stuff
workout (1km swim!)

If I were suddenly made a billionaire, I would:
go on a very long adventure that would end in a house in Spain
pay off my student loans
do everything to my mom's house she wants done
get a girl puppy that actually LIKES to snuggle
donate
invest
I don't know - I had a hard time wrapping my brain around what $50K a year looks like.

Three of my bad habits are:
1. PROCRASTINATION - although I'm starting to not so much see this as a bad habit, just a habit that I have to accomodate for.
2. not reading my Bible
3. driving while texting (working on it)

Five jobs I've had:
1. Restaurant Hostess
2. Music Librarian for LHB
3. Waitress at Jolly Cooper's in London
4. Swim teacher for babies
5. Personal assistant for musician/producer in Austin

Five things people don't know about me:
1. I have a plantar's wart on the bottom of my right foot that I tried to get frozen then burned off and it keeps coming back.  I hate to get pedicures because it grosses me out and I'm pretty sure the Asian girls talk about me and my nasty foot in Korean and then laugh at me.
2. I have a horrendous weakness for french fries
3. I won a John Phillip Sousa award for musical excellence in high school, which is ironic because though he may have been the world's first rock star, I still hate his stupid music.
4. I actually like Dallas, I just pretend I don't so I sound cooler.
5. I am an excellent friend, it just takes awhile to get to know me 'cos I have some silly walls up.  But, who doesn't. 


4.01.2008

kicking my own butt

I worked OUT today.  I ran for 20 minutes (!!!) and then did an hour spin class.  Needless to say I was hankering for some serious grub afterwards - we had awesome veggie tacos with refried black beans and for dessert some Pocky sticks, which I just discovered at the store and am totally in LOVE with.

Next week I start 10 music therapy sessions a week for a month.  Wish me sanity.

My friend Kelli is freaking giving BIRTH tomorrow.  I honestly can't believe it, but am really really excited to meet the new baby!

3.26.2008

moving, moving everywhere

so, we close on our house mid-April, we move to our new house sometime in May, and then I move to Austin.

I was thinking just a second ago about the things I'm excited about moving to Austin for and one thing stuck out in my head like a firecracker: WASSAILFEST. I'm such a country mouse.

3.25.2008

eh?

Spring Break is over, and it flew by.  We went to Arkansas to fish but had far less luck than last time, as there had been mega storms recently.

There were several highlights of the week, mainly my father in law being doped up on painkillers from a very recent shoulder operation and the quote, "Theresa, take this sandwich" to which Theresa replied, "What sandwich, dad?" because he was not, in fact, holding a sandwich, nor was there any sort of sandwich nearby.

I actually had to force myself to relax - every time a thought of school popped up I pushed it away with thoughts of trout and how cool the water that I was wading in was.  I have 5 weeks of school and a thesis left and then I am done with schooling for a very, very long time.  I can't wait. 

I've started packing for moving and I came across a box of high school/college stuff...old love letters and graduation cards, which I mostly tossed, except for the one from my first boyfriend where he tried to use the word "quixotic" in a sentence about me and graduation cards from my grandpa who died recently.  Not recently, but, well, recently.  I made the mistake of opening a journal from the last part of my relationship with THE ex-boyfriend and I relished in the sentence "I have the feeling our relationship is dying..."  I threw that journal away, it was mostly about him and made me very sad because things were ending.  Reading all the highlights from my junior and senior year put me in kind of a funk, and then I pulled out my hubs's Christmas present to me a few years ago of all the Emails we've ever sent to each other starting with one back in March of 2002.  I sat and read the whole thing.  It's not one of those lovely dovey chronicles of puke but every bit of our first awkward moments, through the tumultuous time of me being in Spain and then London and then his job training.  It made me smile all the way down to our toes, especially the last quote in the book that I added to an  Email - "Things do not change, we change" (Aristotle).  

I've been thinking a lot about that today, people changing. Expectations and motivations and everything in between, which brings me back to being done with school in that I'm hardly going to know what to do with myself when I don't have schoolwork plus SAMT meetings, theses, or anything scholastically related to be obligated to.  To be honest I'm really looking forward to it, to doing all the scrapbooking/sewing/sending letters to my friends/baking/cooking/painting/maybe finally taking that pottery throwing/photography/creative writing/gardening class that I've been thinking about for the last almost decade.  Phew.

3.16.2008

spring break: day 2

I am still exhausted from yesterday's events - the St. Pat's parade on Greenville in Dallas. I had a really good time with good friends, good beer, good food, good jello shots, good shameless schmoozing for beads, etc. etc.  Maybe it's because we watched Rendition last night after the festivities, but I came to the realization that all of that waking up early, buying tacos, buying beer, putting on sunscreen, standing around for 3 hours and having to stand in line for sketchy bathrooms was just waaaaaay too much work to put in for a sunburn and a mild hangover.

Maybe this is me growing up again, realigning my priorities, as per usual when the seasons change. But, when you realize that you and your husband can put this kind of effort in and keep making excuses for not going to/finding the right church, there's something a little off-kilter.

Note to self: no matter how hungry you are, do not freaking eat the meat you gave up a few months ago.  I had a big yummy piece of barbecued chicken and a couple pieces of sausage yesterday because I was *so* terrifically hungry after the parade...and my entire system is giving me hell for it today in the form of stenchified poots. Blegh.

In awesomer news, I got a music therapy internship in Austin for 6 months starting in June, which puts me in line to graduate in December and also a boost for my resumé because it is at a psychiatric facility.

And, we got a new tent today on a sort of impulse-buy...April and May cannot get here fast enough¡

3.12.2008

high on sugar...and the weather.

i could kick my barista's butt for suggesting the new sweet tea - it's black with sugar brewed into it which, thanks to the coupling of that and the cranberry orange muffin has sent me over the edge of a sugar mountain so that now i'm like, free floating all tweaked out like through my day.  

3.11.2008

Jesus take the wheel..

...and my papers and projects and everything related to school, buying/renovating a house, possibly graduating soon, being a fantastic wife, feeling crampy and barfey for the last two days and/or getting an internship.  

Please?

3.10.2008

the week before spring break: chaotic.

There is nothing quite like waking up at 6am to get to class early the day after daylight savings (read: extra painful) AND after going to bed at 11:30pm, only to get to class and have your professor not show up! Gah!

This past weekend in Austin was awesome. The internship interview went really well, and I got the chance for some one on one time with a girlfriend who I feel like even though we've known each other for 7 years, I know her better after this weekend. The baby shower was also a huge hit but did I take any pictures? Of course not! I was too busy being one of three hostesses with the mostesses.

Now we're back to Dallas and I think the hubs and I have finally figured out a game plan for our kitchen renovations. Hopefully we'll hear back from the electrician soon. The most interesting part of all this has been trying to figure out our collective style, to come up with a kitchen that works AND is aesthetically pleasing to both of us. We've pretty much settled on the types of cabinets we want and that we would like to put an island in. We go round and round about the floors (one type of floor in the kitch and the rest hardwood or hardwood all over or cork maybe but definitely NOT tile etc. etc. etc.). I'm excited about having a piano in the house, and really about painting everything. This is so typical boys vs. girls thinking but the hubs is really into the hardware and the behind the scenes stuff (AC etc.) and when he asks me what I think about what we should do to this room or that I start talking paint colors and hardware from Anthropologie *drool* Go figure, eh? Also on our list is fixing the fence so our dog can't get out...the last person who owned him mentioned that he is an escape artist...so, we can't have chain-link fences and he could easily clear a 4-ft fence if he needed to. Decisions, decisions.

3.07.2008

morning swim

I know I'm not exactly saying anything new when I say that I love Austin. ESPECIALLY in March. Unfortunately, my Spring Break does not coincide with SXSW, or else I'd finagle a way to be down here this coming week. Anyway, in keeping with my tri workouts, I had to swim today, and the friends we're staying with don't go to Lifetime any more so they said I should go to the local outdoor pool...heated, of course. After many twists and wrong turns I finally made it to the community pool, where the girl standing guard straight up told me I was crazy for swimming in this cold of weather. She uncovered a couple lanes for me and I got about halfway through when I looked over to my left, the darker water where the lanes were still covered up.

And, I FREAKED out. I think it has a lot to do with growing up swimming in lakes and rivers where dark water = cold and scary. Anyway, I tried to relax but think that all the stress coursing through my body made me nauseous when I got out of the pool. But hey, at least I'm sticking to my routine :)

Back to loving Austin, I woke up at about 6:30 to swim and turned on 107.1 KGSR...there is nothing better than waking up to that radio station. I've decided that Kyle and I need to work on some sort of 10-year plan to get back to Austin.

3.05.2008

bzzzzt!

going through a house inspection is totally overwhelming!  The good news is that aside from some electrical work, everything else is mostly good!  Just little things here and there.  The next step is getting the electrician out there, then talking to contractors about work.  I can't help but feel this like, urgency to get everything done and at the same time an overwhelming sense of peace.  

Wacky.

3.04.2008

cross your fingers for a clean bill of health

inspection day is tomorrow - I'm really excited and nervous about this.  Excited for obvious reasons, and nervous because I'm really allergic to mold, and don't want there to be any bad stuff.  The foundation looks pretty solid...no huge cracks in the wall or anything like that.

We've been talking about redoing our kitch first thing when we close, which has sent us into a rightful tizz about appliances and flooring options.  There's so much to think about!  Everyone's general advice is that redoing a house is super stressful.  We're heeding the warnings and vowing to keep communication lines open and be realistic about our budget.  I can't wait to get in that house and start fixing it up!  April 22nd can and can't get here fast enough ;)

3.03.2008

not only a house but...

cars in snow!














Jake in snow :)

































!!!!!!!!!!!!

OUR OFFER WENT THROUGH!!  WE HAVE A HOUSE!


the master bathroom that will soon be expanded...
and our fabulously retro kitch :)
garden party, anyone?


It was built in 1959...1632 sq. ft.  The cool thing about this is that the last people who put an offer in on the house put a higher offer than our original one and it got rejected.  Also, we put in an offer, got it countered, then we countered, and totally expected another counter but they accepted it and it was a little under our target price - so we're like, supposed to have this house!

We close April 22nd God willing - we've got all that inspection stuff to get through this next week.

3.02.2008

confirmation

Today we went and checked out house #2, were only mildly impressed, then went back to house #1 that we originally put an offer in on.  As we walked around, I said, "Man...I hate to be all impulsive about this, but I really like this house better.  Like, a lot better."  My hubs did too, which was totally awesome :)  I had forgotten how great the closet space is, how little the guest bathroom needs updating, and the oodles of charm.  And, in reference to my other post about the coincidences and such, this trip seemed to be more of a confirmation that this house is the righgt one for us.  The seller countered our offer and we countered right back, but the process is going super slowly because she had a BABY on Saturday night! What timing!

Keep all of us in your thoughts and prayers the next couple days!

3.01.2008

spinning away

I have totally slacked on tri training this week, which sucks because last week I hit all of my sessions.  I made it to swimming on Monday and Wednesday but didn't run or do any short bike rides at all.  I know!  Terrible!  However, now that we're into March and into the training schedule timeframe, I'm going to have to be more dedicated about this.

This morning I went to a spin class at 9am and actually got clipped in in under 15 minutes (an unbelievable first for me) and ended up going a whole 12 miles!  The sprint tri is 13 miles, and the training guide has long training rides going up all the way to 3 hours - I guess to build up endurance.  I'm feeling a more pressing need to get my bike worked on and a helmet because I want to start doing this stuff outside/work on transitions, and get down to Austin to figure out where the track is going to be as well as do some riding on the illustrious Hwy. 360.

In other biking news, Lance Armstrong was at the Richardson Bike Mart recently, doing a birthday ride with Mr. Hoyt.  That would've been so ridiculously amazing to be there - what a treat!  That's part of the reason I'm looking forward to living here...the Mart has rides on Saturdays and real spin classes.

Anyway, hopefully next week will be better.  I can't stop this stuff - it's addicting, and I have to stay in this new jeans size ;)

peace like a river

Kelli pointed out to me that "peace like a river" is a funny concept, because sometimes rivers are totally peaceful, but sometimes they are totally not.

Growing up I was taught every bend and twist of the Guadalupe River from my dad's motel to Gruene.  I still know that river the way I know my own body, still know the curves and bends, which side you want to be on to prevent capsizing or scraping your ace on the riverbottom.  My favorite time of year was the end of season, when the river authority would release water from Canyon Dam at much higher levels (3,000 - 5,000 CFS) than typical tourist days (around 250 CFS, depending on how much or little rain had been received that year). On those high river days, there weren't many rapids and you could fly down from Canyon Lake to Gruene in about 4 hours, which would normally take 8.  On the lower-CFS days, though, it seemed that the river struggled to get downstream.  It was those days that made me severely nervous about Hueco Springs.  For a video click here.

There's a rock in the middle of the river, which I was always strongly cautioned to stay away from at the risk of being sucked in the undercurrent and smashed against the rock, or worse, held underwater in that crazy washing machine-like chaos until spit up long after I had ceased breathing.

So, when I think about "peace like a river" I can't help but picture the calm and treacherous bends of the Guadalupe, and right now in my life seems to really reflect that picture.  Besides all the stuff that's going on in school (see previous post), today we put a bid in on a house that would require significant upgrading, but we really love the location and the prospect of updating a house.  Not five minutes ago, the hubs called me into the living room to look at a house that is the exact square footage, in the same price range and had been recently updated.  We're going to try to go look at that house either today or tomorrow.

I know that no matter what, we'll have a house probably by May and that we'll be in the place we're supposed to be.  I just think it's funny because I had no reservations about buying the fixer-upper, but was still praying that if we were supposed to be somewhere else, that God would make that available.  Coincidence?  Don't really know that yet.